I feel a bit like Alice in Wonderland lately.
Everything feels a bit like a daydream that I can’t escape. I have my university lectures throwing assignments at me left, right and centre. A bank balance which is terrified that Christmas will eat it and a child who’s potty training isn’t friends with my carpet!
What are you suppose to do? I only have 24 hours in the day and right now, everyone wants all 24 of them to themselves. How am I meant to be in all these different places all at once.
Some people have asked me why don’t I just quit?
It’s a question which really annoys me. For me, going to university is a big achievement in its self. I was never the smartest at school ( being told I would be lucky to get C grades at GCSE) and thought I would never manage it. Going to university to me, is also a way of me setting a positive example for my daughter. I like to show her that by having the determination t do something, you can do it.
Hope fully, at the end of it, I also manage to get a good job and be able to provide more for her. As a parent, I always feel like I could give her more. More days out, more holidays (just a holiday really) and a better education. I have always wanted Lily to go to private school or have extra tutoring at home. After struggling at school, I want to give her the best I can.
As for finding spare hours in the day, I only think a TARDIS would be able to help me with that! I love university and I know the responsibility is on me to get my work done, but when you lectures and tutors only offer problems rather than solutions, you start to lose your enthusiasm.
I’m just sort of hoping now that the Christmas season will help me lighten up a bit and relax!